Day 2: Grace's birthday/ Tattoo day

Today is Grace's 22nd birthday! Happy birthday to you Greese. I love you forever! She really deserves everything life can give, and more. She's been through a lot and I admire her for pushin through it. Not only is today her birthday, but i got my tattoo. It's my last name in alibata. It's basically two symbols, but those two symbols mean hella to me. The pain was.. different? Haha but as I sat there, the pain was basically a metaphor to what my family has been through and the name and ancient writing represents where i came from. And that family is always first, no matter how bad you have it. It just sucks because I wont be able to share it with my dad or anyone on that side of my family because I'll get yelled at or they'll judge me and tell me im going "against God". They'll eventually find out... Hopefully on my wedding day. Haha hella bad huh? I just don't want hella people to know, ya know? I didn't get it for show. So I'm going to keep it on the down low. Lately, I've been feeling... by myself? As emotional, and stupid as it sounds, I actually like it. It's teaching me to depend more on myself than anyone else. I guess it's like a good thing I don't see them as much. So when we actually hang out again, it'll be like a little reunion. I guess? Ha. I'm just going to start naming my blog posts by day number. I'm at my sister's house by myself.. She went to the club with her friends. Maurice and Makayla went to San Jose to see his family and to say bye to his cousin from Canada. So I got the pad to myself. I feel hella different. I dont know why? It's for the better though. I believe so. Well, I'm going to watch some tv and debate whether or not I should order pizza.. Haha. Peace easy lemon squeezy.