Day 12: "Franken-baaaaaaaaains"

Well since Natalie told me about how to blog on your phone, I might as
well do one. I'm up anyways. Where to start off? Well, this morning I
woke up at 10:15 and got ready for school. Then I had "complications"
trying to eat and get ready before school. But I finally ate and what
not so I left. When I got to school I met up with hairy Jerry and Ronel
and some other guy who went to Rod. Just talked about how schools been
and what we've been up to lately. Apparently, I look like a mean girl
because of the way my eyebrows are. Hah WOW. But after that I went to
class. It was nice seeing Jerry though. I miss that guy. That slut. Hah
he really is. English class was exceedingly boring today. We watched
another movie about the Rwanda genocide. I hate watching those kind of
things. Even though it's really interesting, it's kind of depressing.
Everyone around the world sat there when they could of helped prevent
the mass murder of more than 800,000 Rwandan Tutsis. But yeah that's
another topic in itself. After english I went home to get ready for my
PE class. I didn't feel like going today but I forced myself because I
need to get myself into shape. Then after PE I went to target to see if
they had puff paint? Some type of paint Andie was telling me about so I
can paint stripes on my halloween shirt. Target didn't have it though so
I'm going to check walmart sometime tomorrow. I went home after that
fail, and studied/reviewed for my math test tomorrow. I'm not really
ready for it. I know I can pass it, I just have to try and not psych
myself out. Okay well lately I've been thinking about dying. Well I
think about dying ehhh around the time when I shower, drive somewhere or
lay in bed. But the past few days I've been thinking about it more than
I should. And it's not because of my period trust me. Questions like:
"what would happen if I died right now?", or "what would change?" are
just a couple of them. I'm not afraid of if there is going to be change
if I died, but I'm afraid of not being remembered. I don't know, that's
just me. Man I'm so tired of the same things. That was random. Ha yipes.
Other things shall not be said on here for privacy and personal reasons.
Maybe if I'm irritated enough I'll flash on a blog. Hah can you see that
happen? Damn. Well I'm going to go, I have nothing else to share right
now. Goodnight, peace ya beast.
--Ashley

Puffy puff puffer puffs.
--Ashley

Day 11: I'm an "adult" now

So it was my birthday a couple days ago. I turned 18. Holler. It was a chill day. Natalie came out and just hung out for the day. The plan was to not go to my first class and then go to my second one. But, that didn't really work out. Ha. I don't feel any different though. Guess it's normal. Wow I had so much stuff to blog about the other night, now I can't remember or think of a thing to say. I guess I can talk about the warriors game I went to with my sister and Maurice. The tickets were a dollar. It was a special promotion or something. But the warriors played the New Orleans hornets. They're from Louisiana. Not Georgia. Hahah wow. The first quarter they were doing pretty bad, but ended up winning the game! It was 126 to 96? 92? But they won by a triple digit. That's all that counts. Oh, and that babydaddy played. Haha He has to work on his point guard skills though. He got the ball stripped twice. I mean c'mon, you can't be doing that in the NBA. It's preseason so he has a lot of time to work on his skills. Right after the game we went to drop of Maurice's friend Bj then went home. Well before that we went to look for food. Everything was closed and wingstop was the only place that was open until 12. We got there 15 minutes before the place closed so it was all gravy. Maurice told us that the cop in the car next to us was talking to some girl and he was spittin lines and what not. He said, "you be thinkin bout sex girl I be thinkin bout checks girl." And for some reason Maurice thought it was the funniest shit. Fagget. Hahaha just kidding. They're probably read this then the next time I see them I'll get tackled down the stairs or something. OH THE JOY! But it's 3 in the morning and i can't sleep. I'm thirsty. School has been pretty good. Nothing really to complain about, but to remember that I need to study for my math test on wednesday. I forgot to bring my book but I'll study when i go back to my dads. The last test I got a B- so I'm hoping for an A-. Cause the material we're going over is easy, it's just a lot of work and a lot of memorizing how to do a certain problem. I wonder what Papa would say if he was still alive. I wonder if he'd still be waking up at 6 just to run on the treadmill blasting his spanish music. Haha good times. I miss him. But, next topic. Haha sorry Papa. Oh yeah, I got my flushot. I hate shots. I know it's something I need so I'll get it, but when I actually get to the hospital and wait to get the shot, anticipation builds and I get all nervous. Freakin ridiculous. The lady who did me (that's what she said) was talking to me like I was some kid. It's like alright, just because everyone else in the line, except for Natalie, are adults doesn't mean you have to talk to me like I'm a kid. C'mon. Well she was an old asian lady so yeah. But still. I'm tired of being seen or looked at as the little kid. I honestly hate it. It's whatever though. I just want to move out already. I'm not saying that by me moving out should show people I'm an adult now, but just so I can get away and just come back as a different person. I don't know if that made any sense what so ever. I can't believe the first semester of college is almost over. What the heck? It just started not too long ago. It's a good feeling to know that my first semester in college I did better than what I expected myself to do. I knew I was going to do good, but not THIS good. Ha. But I need to work on my math and make up a couple classes for my kickboxing class. Two mile run for each make up. I can't wait for it. Ugh. But she said it's not timed, she just wants us to get it done. Shoot. I haven't ran a mile and got a good time on it since freshman year with Natalie. And that was only because of Natalie. Haha holy. Fastest mile I ever ran in my life. Halloween is coming up in less than a week. Is that right? That should be right. But I'm not going to be piglet anymore. I'm just going to throw something together. And hope for the best. Ha. That'll suck in the end. Oh well. So, lately right, I've been feeling so weird about everything and everyone. I don't know how to explain it, and I don't really want to say it on here. But yeah, that's just me. I'm just waiting. Waiting for what? Ahh, that's for me to know. It's 4 already? Holy crap. Well this is my nonsense entry. I'll write something a little more meaningful next time. Peace easy player.

Oh the joy!

I miss you! Yeah you. You two. Yeah, yous.
Im a sap.

Day 10: Can't sleep

So I just got done studying for my midterm, and my math test. I've been at it since 3 in the afternoon. I just really want to do hella good on 'em. Especially my math test. I think I have a C in that class? But because i forgot about my gay online thing i probably have a C-/D. So, ima step it up. I do so well on my homework, but when it comes to tests or quizzes I freak out and over think the problems. Then in result i get a C. I know I can do better. And I will. My english midterm im not so worried about. I think it'll be pretty easy, but it'll just be hella long. And if we dont finish it in an hour and 15 minutes, we owe him hella make up work. And I'am not doing that. Haha. I used to hate math because I never understood it, but now I'm loving it. I get it and it's hella easy to learn. Even though I do bad on my quizzes.. But regardless of that, I like it. Freakin highschool is so useless! Haha. I'm lovin college. I used to be so scared but now it's like everyone is doing their own thing so you're not the only one thats scared, feel me? It's cool learning about other peoples interests and what they want to be. This guy Antoine, he's in my kickboxing class and he's from another country. So that makes him my eye candy. HAHAHAHA too bad he's in his 20's though. There are HELLA students from different countries that go to dvc. It's crazy. Most of them are Asian. So many haha. Oh okay, so the other day I hung out with Natalie & Josephine at the mall and just basically had a chill day. Tell me why we saw these filipino boys about to fight each other.. scratch that, PRETENDING they were going to fight each other. And the embarressing part was that they were yelling at each other in tagalog! Really though? Why? Haha is it really THAT necessary to do something like that? So there's about 17 days until my birthday. It's pretty exciting. Big 18. I don't even know what I want to do for my birthday. Well, my family will probably have a get together and eat dinner and just hang out. The usual. But kickin it with friends? I don't know what to do. I have a boring personality and they'd probably get bored if i decided to do something. I've always wanted to go paintballing, but who has money for that? And who has medical insurance for that? Hahaha ahhhh. One day I'll go. I don't want to watch a movie because that'd be too boring. And if we went to a drive-in it'd probably be too cold and windy. I don't want to eat dinner because that'd be extra boring too. No surprise parties please. I hate surprise parties. Haha forreal though. You're the center of attention the whole time, and I don't like to be the center of attention. Then you get all hot and embarressed. Shooooot. I mean I want to do something but at the same time I don't since it's just one birthday. But it's my 18th so people say I have to. Hahah what the. I wrote a long blog on my sidekick so i could post it up on here but tmobile is being gay with the internet service so it's too late now! I seriously poured my heart out... to my phone.. Haha it felt good to just let it all out. I was just talking about something in particular. Once the service is back up I'll post it. You know what I don't get? Why do I have these dreams with that person in it, when that person doesn't like me? And for that person to act the total opposite in my dream is just irritating. It's like why? What is the purpose of you being in my dream in the first place? I wish they had a portable dream interpreter. So that way, every day I wake up I could figure out what my dreams mean so it could give me a little bit of piece of mind throughout the day. Who knows. Blah blah blah. Next week after my math test..or before?... I'm going to go to the transfer center and see if i could fill out any applications to San Diego state early. When I finally get the acceptance letter to San Diego state, im going to be so juiced you don't even understand. You like how i said "when", instead of "if"? Because I already know I made it. The school just doesn't know that yet. Hahah. Oh! I found a really nice leather jacket. Well, Josephine found it, then Natalie said to "try it on". Haha and it worked out. I didn't know they were giving discounts to students shooot. I'm going to ask every store at the mall from now on everytime I buy something if they give discounts to students. Haha it's smart. I got 10% off that jacket. Man, I love those two knuckle heads. As much as they irritate the hell out of me, and as much as I want to just be rude and tell them to shut up sometimes, I can't and don't. Cause at the same time they keep me content. Which is weird. Haha. And if I do act rude or tell them to shut up or whatever, I wish I could mean it but deep down I never honestly do. That sounds so bad... Hahah it's hard to explain. I'm not sayin I say rude things to them and don't mean it just because I can. When I'm heated like I want to say something but I'd regret it in the end, so I end up saying something else I don't mean or do too much so I can just keep my mind off of that other thing. Wait what?! It's confusing. Haha Well, It's getting kind of late. And I think we're going to church tomorrow? So goodnight blog blog! Peace out.